am i being defiant?

seriously ... will you please someone, anyone tell me if i am being defiant to the point where i would EVER face imprisonment again!  I WILL LISTEN to you if you tell me if I am being TOO defiant. 

I was just raised to empower my voice and I was always granted the liberty of using MY SOAP BOX ... even if it meant I needed to do it at home, in my room with the door closed and just a keyboard, a modem and my transistor radio!

"so, in addition to any other human being on planet earth, i know my mother and father read my blogs.  maybe i am being "too defiant" judge herndon, but maybe you should listen to them about their daughter and her "criminal intent" -- you know, that "mens rea" thing you need in order to imprison anyone in a civilized, sane society." -- Running Rant!

Because the story isn't really that different than anything else you would find on television.  But it did happen to me -- my parent's daughter.  So, as the Mother of My Daughter, I need to be CERTAIN The Story of Her Mother is written and spoken in my words . . . or their words, with only the context I can have being the person having done what I did.  What I did that got me sent to jail for 121+ days of our lives together.

"The Suggestion wasn't even made.  So, in a sense, It was a collective blonde moment for everyone involved.  But, as I sit on the upper bunk in room 20, in module 3D or "David," of the Clark County Detention Center in Las Vegas, Nevada, watching the fountaining lights of The Plaza Hotel & Casino, I just say, "Damn.  Imprisoned for a blonde moment!"

"The Suggestion" being was that I was not right.  No one said to me, "Elaine, you are wrong.  Do ______ instead."  Warnings were given to me that I HEARD and CHOSE to either (a) believe they could not be real, (b) the people involved or that I got involved were who I was working with to create my reality, or (c) if they are real and that is why I was NOT wrong.  Mostly it was (a), hence the blonde moment of my decision that resulted in the reality that became my life. 

I do hope I have lived and learned and know the difference between (a), (b) and (c) a little bit better.  But until I am sure, I'll continue to allow the randomness of the universe lead the way and just x.perience this blahhhhnde moment.

Realize every moment of every second you are alive and be in URmoment a most amazing reality.  Write #URownStoryEveryDay.

peace & harmony,
niki
'freedom must be exercised to stay in shape!'