am i being defiant?

seriously ... will you please someone, anyone tell me if i am being defiant to the point where i would EVER face imprisonment again!  I WILL LISTEN to you if you tell me if I am being TOO defiant. 

I was just raised to empower my voice and I was always granted the liberty of using MY SOAP BOX ... even if it meant I needed to do it at home, in my room with the door closed and just a keyboard, a modem and my transistor radio!

"so, in addition to any other human being on planet earth, i know my mother and father read my blogs.  maybe i am being "too defiant" judge herndon, but maybe you should listen to them about their daughter and her "criminal intent" -- you know, that "mens rea" thing you need in order to imprison anyone in a civilized, sane society." -- Running Rant!

Because the story isn't really that different than anything else you would find on television.  But it did happen to me -- my parent's daughter.  So, as the Mother of My Daughter, I need to be CERTAIN The Story of Her Mother is written and spoken in my words . . . or their words, with only the context I can have being the person having done what I did.  What I did that got me sent to jail for 121+ days of our lives together.

"The Suggestion wasn't even made.  So, in a sense, It was a collective blonde moment for everyone involved.  But, as I sit on the upper bunk in room 20, in module 3D or "David," of the Clark County Detention Center in Las Vegas, Nevada, watching the fountaining lights of The Plaza Hotel & Casino, I just say, "Damn.  Imprisoned for a blonde moment!"

"The Suggestion" being was that I was not right.  No one said to me, "Elaine, you are wrong.  Do ______ instead."  Warnings were given to me that I HEARD and CHOSE to either (a) believe they could not be real, (b) the people involved or that I got involved were who I was working with to create my reality, or (c) if they are real and that is why I was NOT wrong.  Mostly it was (a), hence the blonde moment of my decision that resulted in the reality that became my life. 

I do hope I have lived and learned and know the difference between (a), (b) and (c) a little bit better.  But until I am sure, I'll continue to allow the randomness of the universe lead the way and just x.perience this blahhhhnde moment.

Realize every moment of every second you are alive and be in URmoment a most amazing reality.  Write #URownStoryEveryDay.

peace & harmony,
niki
'freedom must be exercised to stay in shape!'

Why We Do Things

We do things because we can.  It is as simple as that.  As soon as we give ourselves permission that something is "ok," if we desire it, we do it.  Individually and collectively, we do it.

It is now intrinsic in our societal structure to exclude in order to create our Living or Operational Reality.  In our Operation Reality, we are completely capitalistic in our structure.  And, unfortunately, most, if not all, behavior is justified, codified, regulated and manipulated to suit the Governing Norms.

The Governing Norms that makes no sense to me are those of enslavement and imprisonment -- the taking of the freedoms and liberties of another human being -- just because it can be done.  The arbitrariness of the judicial system, based on its intrinsic needs to protect itself, becomes less so when viewed from the inside.  Inside a jail cell, the system of efficiency is self-evident.

"The only thing that makes jail so different is that its unknown, until it is experienced, that is.  Each day someone new comes in (like me) and its a whole different world -- completely self-contained and dedicated to self-perpetuation.  If anyone in America still has the illusion that our jails and prisons are designed to (a) punish or (b) rehabilitate, I'm here to completely shatter that illusion.  Prisons and jails are big business and what does every business need to succeed?  Repeat customers.  Our jails are structurally and functionally designed to create and perpetuate the criminal consumer."

You see, before I experienced this, I thought we supported the judicial system in order to perpetuate a system of ethical behavior in our Living Reality.

Are not jails and our judicial system supposed to be

about creating a society of JUSTICE?

or
was it about ECONOMICS all along?

I'm not a hater.  If its about Economics, that's fine.  Just why was I told that it is about helping people, who may not have any other kind of help, become a functioning -- if not a happy and functioning -- part of our society?

Did I misunderstand my parents when they explained that to me?

Did I misunderstand the church when I learned about it there?

Did I miss something completely?

I thought we wanted everyone happy and functioning in our society.  

Help.  Very dizzy and confused right now.